Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Who knew?

Who knew a breakup that didnt even involve me would be so emotional?

Last week Preston broke up with his long-time girlfriend Rachel. She called me Thursday morning sobbing. She was just sick and heartbroken. I didnt know what to say to her as I hadnt heard from Preston. She said that he stated that he was thankful for all she and her family had ever did for him and that she was a model girlfriend, that he just needed time alone and wanted to be single. And although I cannot blame him... he is only 21. It was just so hard to hear! Rachel, her brother, Mom.. her family just so close to us. I just hate it! I cannot tell you how many tears I have shed. I sobbed the entire rest of the day and quite a bit last Friday {Im sure this contributed to my headache as blogged about previously}

I spoke to Preston briefly on Friday, but he did not mention, nor did I anything about anything. And again I cried for him, for her.. just so sad.

Tonight he finally told me.. and basically the same thing he told her. I just asked him to please make it a clean break and do not give any false hope. He said he hated to be the jerk and do the breakup, but he didnt see forever and didnt want to put her through that if that was the case. Words sooo hard to hear. For her, for me. And tonight, she posted her Facebook status as Single and it started all over again.. the tears.. the sadness. Why is this effecting me so much?....

I think because when I was 21... Prestons Dad asked me for a divorce and basically said all the same things to me that Preston said to Rachel. It just brought all those feelings flooding back.. the heartache. I tell you the pain that I felt was just sickening. I literally thought I was going to die it hurt so bad. As a matter of fact, Ive always said since that a broken heart hurts worse than any real physical pain I have had to endure. And I am sticking with that still.

I know with time all will be well for the both of them. They are both smart kids, they both have a huge future ahead.. with or without one another. I just wish it wasnt so hard. Im going to pray for strength for Rachel and Preston to get through this rough spot in the road, thank the good Lord that they hadnt gotten married or had children yet... and selfishly pray for myself while Im at it. I can no longer pretend that it is PMS that is making me emotional! I guess I need some healing too!

Thanks for listening!


Amie said...

Awww so sorry for them! I guess it takes courage to know when it's time to end something. :( But it hits so close to home, doesn't it? Good luck to you all.

~ Rada Rhythm and Rhyme~ said...

I almost cried reading that because you're sooo right---a broken heart hurts so much you can't even imagine it unless you've had one too. I'm praying for you all and understand what you're going through. But it's these things that make us stronger and better in the end!

linda said...

I am so sorry. Sending you lots and lots of hugs