Thursday, January 20, 2011

The jig is up!

So yeah, the jig is up on so many levels. haaa.

First off.. I know my blog posts have been anything but perky as of late. Im not perky. Things here are ughhh. Todd and I are experiencing some major difficulties right now-heading straight for divorce court Im afraid. I dont really want to talk about it right now, but it is what is going on.
Im sad, angry.. he is too.. we are just trying to keep it adult and light and understand each other as much as possible and keep level headed. So many emotions though its crazy!

On other notes.. it snowed.. like a LOT!!! hehee we are at 8 inches and its still snowing!!!
Yesterday was Justices 11th birthday and today is Hunters 6th birthday.. Cant believe my babys are growing up soooo fast!!! We had Hunters party this past weekend and will have Justices this weekend if weather permits me to be able to go get him! I will be posting pics very soon from those.. in the meantime...

Here is me at the office this morning.I look like such a dork! hahahaaa.. but yeah. heheee :)
Have a great day and be safe if you are out and have snow! Also keep praying for me/us.. I/we could use it!!! Thank you in advance!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011


Sums up my life right now... will return upon being settled... pray for peace in my heart and happiness for my soul. Thank you...

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Only God Knows Why...

I've been sittin here
Tryin to find myself
I get behind myself
I need to rewind myself
Lookin for the payback
Listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me
And I feel like number one
Yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son
And it helps to pass the time
I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain
I made a couple of dollar bills, but still I feel the same
Everybody knows my name
They say it way out loud
A lot of folks fuck with me
It's hard to hang out in crowds
I guess that's the price you pay
To be some big shot like I am
Out strecthed hands and one night stands
Still I can't find love

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

As it...hey

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

People don't know about the things I say and do
They don't understand about the shit that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long
Maybe I forgot all things I miss
Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this
I said it too many times
And I still stand firm
You get what you put in
And people get what they deserve
Still I ain't seen mine
No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin
I've been walking that there line
So I think I'll keep a walking
With my head held high
I'll keep moving on and only God knows why

Only God
Only God
Only God knows why, why, why, why
Only God...knows...why, why, why
Only God knows why
Take me to the river edge
Take me to the river, hey hey hey

It may take a while for me to find myself.. but Im going to keep moving on.. just like Kid Rock says in this song!