Friday, March 16, 2007


Well I must say that I was never the cartoonish type. I loved sitcoms and still do to this day. When I was a kid my favorite *cartoons* were... Land of the Lost, Captain Kangaroo, HR Puff and Stuff, Lidsville, Happy Days and Laverne and Shirley. To me these were *cartoons* I watched them after school and on Saturday mornings. Also on Saturday mornings Id watch a movie kinda like the *after school* movies... they were hosted by Kookla, Fran and Ollie... anyone remember those??? I do remember watching one animated cartoon and that was Fat Albert. I love Bill Cosby, I grew up listening to him on Fat Albert, and on my dads old vinyl albums... and then on to watch him in his very own sitcom! Does anyone remember the animated learning songs between the cartoons... Like Conjunction Junction and Im Just a Bill???? Thinking back on the cartoons of my day really make me happy... I wish that my kids loved watching these shows too... seemed like they were a bunch more informational than Power Rangers and *crap like that. ha! ;)

Saturday, March 10, 2007

When they die~

Ok... Ive asked my scrappin' sisters to help me out with a question that is burning inside my heart and mind lately. Ive had a hard year with the death of my Grandma and think constantly and wonder what its like for her now. I have always thought that when you die... your body stays in the ground or floating if cremated.. and that your spirit {I picture the whole body} as going to Heaven/Hell.. I think or want to think that Heaven is just this magnicent place where everything is in color, there is no black and white and that everyone is very happy and at peace. There is no traffic, no keeping up with the jones', no money, no nothing but one huge palace and garden... I see God and the angels floating around everyone that I know who has passed.... but then here comes the hard part for me... Are the folks that I have lost, still suffering?, like for example.. My Grandma died of Alzheimers... does she still have that??? or is she auto-matically healed?... What about her meeting Grandpas first wife??? Do they fight? I just wonder all these crazy things. I want to know or would like to know that she is in heaven doing and feeling good.... not in the same shape as when she died. I dont know why I feel the need to know? Maybe its because I now have another Grandma dying of demtia and its just so hard to see them in this state of mind. I want to remember her as she used to be when we were so very close.
As far as me dying... I just hope that when I do die that I have my stuff together, I want to have written my thoughts down for my boys and to know that things are just *done*.. I dont want anything fancy.. just some pictures and me in a box... heck someone could scrap it and Id be delighted hehee... I have certain songs I want played and I want my children to know theyve been loved beyond the sky and moon. I want Todd to know that I love him more than all eternity as well.. and that Im going to be ok... that everything is going to be OK. Thats it... simple.