Sunday, July 30, 2006

Nightmare~

This nightmare has haunted me all week and thats why / how I came up with the weekend blog challenge...
First some background~ I used to work at a hospital and met a very cool couple{Sharon and Bob} through my office manager... she wanted me to meet them and their daughter{Lynne} and her husband and kids. The daughter and husband were a younger couple and didnt really have anyone to hang out with and at the time I was married and had just the one son... so we did start hanging out. Every other weekend we were at one anothers house and did everything together and then every year on Mothers Day weekend we'd all gather including her{Lynnes} parents and her brother Marc, my office manager and her hubby and my family for a cabin experience and car show. Anyway... we all worked in the healthcare field... Bob and Sharon were Paramedics and worked long hours, often several jobs at the area ambulance districts. Bob and I became friends as I was really into the ER drama and when my husband and I got married Bob had come downstairs to get me to tell me everyone was ready... he was the 1st person to see me in my wedding gown and told me that I was the most beautiful bride... something my own father had never done for me. Fast forward to a couple years later... We were on vacation in South Dakota when I got a call from my mom at our hotel. She told me some horrifying news. Bob had killed himself... I was in shock, I couldnt stop crying, but for the sake of my family I straightened up and called my old office manager and talked to her about the funeral as I was unable to come home and attend. It was a horrible thing, but it would seem that he was under intense pressure at his job and had recently tended to a particularly bad scene. He also had just found out that his wife Sharon had been having an online affair and was planning on leaving him. His daughter, my friend Lynne found him and he also did this act on her birthday... As soon as we came home from vacation Lynne and her family came and stayed with us and I comforted her during a big chunk of her grieving process. Then we grew apart as I got divorced and she and her husband got divorced and we both moved to different cities 3 hours from one another. Last year around this same time, my ex husband called me and told me that he had just found out that Lynnes little brother had now killed himself. I was floored once again. He had just recently gotten married and was recovering from an alcohol and prescription drug addiction and it would seem life was going really well for Marc....then this. I was unable to reach Lynne to tell her how sorry I was for her loss, but via my old office manager was able to get her the message. I havent gotten to speak with her in forever and miss her dearly... Fast forward to one night this past week... I awake in a horrible sweat, bawling.... I had had a dream that I was part of a CSI team/Paramedic team that went to a call... it was Lynne, she had killed herself and I was the one there that was to identify her.... OMG... what a nightmare... but I guess with the whole dream/nightmare experience it has made me want to contact her and get back into touch with her... I miss my friend Lynne and I want her to know just how much I love her.

4 comments:

beckster said...

wow angi. i can't comprehend why anyone would commit suicide. it boggles my mind. i say get in tough with lynne. it would make you feel better. it sounds like you have a wonderful friend. FIND HER!!!!

harleyangel said...

woah Angi. That is so heartbreaking :(
I hope you can get in touch with your friend soon.

Valerie said...

WOW that broke my heart :( I do hope you find your friend soon and get to say hi!

Kimmy said...

Im so sorry