Thursday, August 14, 2008

A ways to go yet~

Well.. Im almost done with my blog tweaks.. I just need to add a bunch more links yet. Im not sure Im liking everything on the right side when it used to be on the right. We'll see. It really shouldnt matter to me since the blog is ultimately for you the reader.

Anyway...
On to other things. Im having a rough week. My personal life which is normally happy has turned sad and pathetic and I just dont know how to fix it.. or if it will just iron itself out. I think Im going to turn to God once again and pray for strength.. I feel like Ive asked for so much and been given so much that I dont deserve any more favors, but I really would like to hold this together. Also lately I have not wanted to scrapbook, read about scrapbooking, participate in forums or anything. I just want to dissolve myself in non-important things and sit on the couch. I have no motivation and no motivation around me either.

I have definitely came away in this life with one thought.. one piece of advise. Do NOT ever ever get married. It is something wayyyy easy to get into and wayyyy harder to get out of. Id rather be alone than be miserable in a relationship that does not have 2 working partners. and so call me weak for not wanting to work things out.. but remember it takes TWO.. it always did and it always will.

One last thing.. Id love to give a shout out to my Mom... she is going to be SIXTY yup thats right the big 6-0 on Monday the 18th. I sooo wish I could see her and be with her, but I just cant.. so I wrote her a letter disclosing just 60 of the reasons why I love her so much. I thought it was going to be hard coming up with 60 things, but found out it really was quite easy and I could have went on and on. She is a special person, we have a special relationship and she is my best friend. So Happy Birthday Mom... *cheers* ;)

4 comments:

Cat said...

Hmmmm... This makes me sad. It sounds like a lot of things are coming to a head right now. I know you're upset about not seeing your Mom, and I know that you're upset about things at home. I wish I could lighten your load, and I hope that it all gets more manageable soon. BIG HUGS and I sure hope you call me back!

jinxi said...

Thanks girl.. you really rock. Im so glad to have you! Things are much better as you now know. :) Hugs!

linda said...

jinxi, email me if you need anything.. even it is just to chat.. I am sending you big hugs from Colorado..
georgiadawgs662003@yahoo.com

lois (katesmum) said...

I know just how you feel...I have been there myself and found that life has a way of moving forward...just think about what you want and go for it even if it takes awhile.